My suppressed emotions... ...4 years of holding back
Hi, I know that I never ever write about personal stuff, but I just gotta bitch about some stuff and get it off my chest. I always dread fridays during the 0830 - 1130am period : its lab!!! I swear that as time passes I'm starting to realise that I have no interest(zilch!) in engineering. Its starting to get worse when I'm faced with engineering practical stuff. Man I really f***ing hate it. Today was the worst. I had to come face to face with the breadboard(is it spelt correctly? Basically its just some complex board to connect all yr circuits and components) and its only the 2nd time I'm handling it.
Came an hour late and realised everyone had started their experiments and there I was having to read the manual and figering out the steps and sequences on how to start. Lucky I could just copy the setting up from my neighbours nxt door :0). But after that I was stuck there for the rest of the lab session asking questions from the professors and just acting interested and smart. Haha , I feel you need'nt guess who's gonna be the last to leave. Man I just had to act really interested and hardworking in order to leave a good impression just so I could leave. I really hate imagining if I had gone to poly.(unless its a non-science course!) Heard its more hands on, and oh... ...can't see myself facing complex circuitry everyday( >.<'). Lucky there's JC, where you can flunk all you want and it does'nt matter, cause its only gonna be the A levels that counts(I know, I'm just giving an excuse for my triple Fs in the prelims). And lab sessions meant playing and messing around with chemicals and weights(haha, I did'nt suggest anytin!!! Especially the stains on my shirt!).
Come to think of it, I really kinda miss my JC days. Yep, especially my three darlings and pussy nephew. I really miss those days where I skip lectures to(gasp!) play daidi(now that was stupid come to think of it)/act cool/play soccer/play rugby/talk cock/act crazy and wierd(ok, I know i'm the craziest and wierdest, but don't tell me you never were like that)/gay around with my three uncles and pussy nephew/attracting hot chicks(including NUS girls and office ladies at 18! XD)/playing truth or dare everyday/acting hardworking in front of teachers(ok, maybe that's a lie)/being forced to become part of the F4 and sit at the front of the class seperately with the rest of the F4/getting calls for my mom from my form teacher suggesting that I should retain/having frequent tea sessions with the principal because of... .../doing wierd, stupid and fun things that even you would never do(like holding hands with a guy in public(I'm not gay!) and asking a fellow stranger in school the colour of his dick(It was a dare))/having the lecturer before each lecture calling my name in front of the whole school to make sure I attended lectures(wonder why he does'nt trust my signature on the the attendance list... ...maybe he found out that it was'nt mine.)/screwing up my life/being a mistake in life(haha, that makes life fun at least)/and many more... ...(ask desmond and pussy about the chao geng incident!).
Ok I have a suggestion... ...wonder if my three uncles and the pussy is willing to go back to JC at 21/22... ...ha ha don't think so. Come to think of it, I had better delete this post, just in case(horror and gasps!!!) that I eventually become an engineer and my future boss is gonna read this. Anyway I have some dreams to fulfil and wonder if anyone wanna join me in becoming a musician(probably in Orchard tunnel as my fellow uncles like to say) and together we're gonna be the best and most talented band Asia is gonna conjure. So if you're pro in guitar/durms... ..etc.(piano's taken by me!!!) please tell me(and I mean really pro...like steve vai and akira jimbo...ok just kidding...or at least somewhere there). I'm also gonna form a new team pussy, with the aim of leading Singapore to the world cup in 2010. Any takers? Ok, I'm feeling better now, gotta go to KAP study and pick up JC girls. :0)
